Starting my audio blog and doing recordings have set off comments about how my accent isn’t Indian and how it sounds fake. I haven’t said anything about it until now but this morning I am feeling very strongly about it.
I KNOW THAT MY ACCENT ISN’T LIKE OTHER INDIANS. I am not trying to mimic Americans or British in an effort to seem more cool. Because lets face it, I am cool enough by myself to not need the accent. I am completely fine and happy being an Indian.
The first language I started speaking was Kannada because the people in the day care I used to go to since I was six months old, as both my parents worked, they spoke Kannada and I learnt that. But I’m a Tamilian. Only after I left day care when I was 7 were my parents able to fully teach me Tamil and reinforce that Tamil in my mother tongue. In the process, I kind of forgot Kannada beause I had no one to speak to in it anymore. Result, I’m not good at either languages.
I’ve been told a lot in real life too how I am not A REAL TAMILIAN because I can’t speak it flawlessly. Well I can’t do anything about that it’s kind of too late now for me to get the accent and flow!
I speak Hindi flawlessly. I don’t mean to brag but I do. I keep getting told that I sound more like a north Indian than a south Indian and most people say that they never thought I’m a Tamilian until I told them. Even though my parents look like proper Tamilians you would understand on sight, I’m more taken to be a north Indian. I don’t know how that happened but I can’t change my looks to look more like a Tamilian! This has been a major problem for me since I was in elementary/primary school.
Even though I write in English, I speak Hindi better. I stutter while speaking in English but Hindi is just perf. I am an Indian.
Do you have any idea how many times I’ve been told that I don’t sound/look like a person of my heritage? And every single time I’m told that, it sounds like I’ve done a very big crime.
I get the accent because of the number of English tv shows and movies I watch, the number of English songs and I sing and try to sing so perfectly that now I just acquired the accent. I DO watch Hindi shows and movies and listen to Bollywood songs. I DO speak Tamil and listen to a few songs and see a few movies. I DO understand Kannada and Telugu even if I cannot speak it properly.
I have no problem being an Indian and a Tamilian that I would resort to faking my whole self.
“You don’t sound like an Indian.”
“You’re more like a north Indian.”
“Are you really a Tamilian?”
“Your accent is fake.”
“Maybe you could try to sound more normal?”
I am who I am. I’m not faking any of this.
Thank you very much. *being sarcastic, if you didn’t get that*